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something you don’t just read, but do, and do with other people.

the utter is changing. For five years, I’ve written to you for most weeks, often twice a week. Now I want to show up here in a more useful way, especially amidst all the noise, noise, noise of the time. Over the past year, the thing I’ve heard from you most is some version of "I don’t know what I think anymore" or "I can’t hear myself." I know the feeling. It’s why I write. So, I want to do something.

How it’s changing

🌳 Free subscribers

The free writing continues. The new and expanded paid offering below is an additional, deeper layer for anyone who wants the complete experience, the practice that I am developing, and the live rooms. If you can subscribe, and you so desire, you should; it’ll be juicy!! 🍏🍎🍑🫐🍉

🌳Paid subscribers

I’m changing how the paid side of the utter works. I don’t want to sell a course or a program with modules, though. You all know me; I prefer the stirring and the excavating, and though reading is my favourite thing to do, there's so much to read, and everywhere. (Shoutout to books you bought over the years that are gathering dust.) It’s time for a change, and I don’t just want to post letters into internetland any more. the utter is becoming something you don’t only read but also listen to and do, and do with other people, if you fancy it.

Every month, we take one clear theme (a single idea or experience that many of us are living through right now) and explore it in some depth together throughout the month. You can still read it, but you’ll get my voice in your ear walking you into it too, and you can stop there, of course, but over the course of the month, there will also be optional prompts/noticings made to be done by hand, on paper or in the world, away from the screens that have been eating us alive¹.

Plus in addition…

💬 company (a talking circle)

We get on a call once a month together in a Live Room. This is a space where you can show up exactly as you are. I LOVE this part of my Substack. Some weeks you’ll feel like listening; some weeks you’ll want to add; both are always welcome. The room is open to every paid subscriber to come and hang out with no pressure to perform or share, but many people who come thinking they’ll stay quiet end up speaking because it feels safe. It’s a lovely community, and it’s growing. This is for anyone who wants to come further in and feel less alone in the middle of it all.

The next one is this Sunday, July 26 9 am PT / 12 pm ET / 5 pm BST.

Why all this now???

I don’t think you need more even to read (well, yes, you do, but likely not on a screen 👀). I think we all need somewhere to go and something to do when our own minds have gone quiet on us. I’ve spent my whole life learning how to get back into contact with myself, on the page, in the body, through the work and in the world, so I feel strongly about handing you the practice, not the theory.

What’s first???

The first topic is the meantime (aka THE MEAN TIME); by that I mean the long, uncertain stretch where you can’t tell if you’re building something or growing or festering or just waiting, and, because of isolation, you assume you’re the only one in it. You’re not. Here’s the premise. (A preview, if you will, in which I set the scene. The rest lands on Thursday.)

The Way In…

AUDIO #1: THE MEANTIME

Price

If you’re a paid subscriber, nothing to do; it’ll stay the same for you as long as you’re here with me. If you’re not yet, you can still upgrade for $7.99, forever. It’s moving to $11 a month for any new sign-ups from Tuesday, July 28.

The new annual plan is $110 (save 17%). Founding members remain unchanged. Come in, and let’s find out what we think, together.

yrs,

Yrsa xxx

1. Creative block??? Who’s she?